11 January 2010

Blog Empire

So as I near my one-year blogging anniversary, I wonder at the point of all this. When I started all this writing, I set a goal for myself and a time limit of 18 months. I started on March 17th, so I have till September to judge if I am "a success."


I asked my husband tonight if I don't think I am "successful" then, what should I do? Stop writing? He was like, "yeah." So, he doesn't really have to think about it, but I have really enjoyed getting my thoughts in order. Twice my computer has crashed and I have gone email, Facebook, blog and internet free. Like the days when I run out of creamer and don't have any coffee, it hasn't killed me. I haven't suffered horribly and felt as if a limb was missing. No one in the blogosphere has perished without my musings. However, I know I am a writer. I don't feel like I need to be published (ie, paid) to BE a writer. It is who I am, like a woman or mother or Jesus-follower.

So how do I know how to quit? What should I judge my success or lack thereof from? Initially, I wanted to do two things:

-make enough blogging to pay my monthly internet bill ($60)
-reach people who could be impacted by what I have to say

Now, I want to feel part of a community too. Writing on my blogs has been awesome because so much of what was in my head is out. I talk a lot less!

I enjoy reading a few blogs out there, mainly ones that glorify God. I should make a blogroll of the ones I love. Maybe this week. Ever since I have been pining for comments, I have started leaving comments when I read. As a blogger, it's so encouraging! I have emailed a little with other bloggers. I know that I have begun praying for the readers of New Mercy in the past few months.

I have to tell you, my other blog, Higher Education, has more readers and more comments. (I have Google analytics, which tells me all sorts of stuff about my blog traffic, so I do know that you're here, lurking.) However, homeschooling is great and all, but my walk with the sustaining Lord is much more interesting to me. Hearing about His hand in other women's lives is exciting and wonderful to me. The opportunity to pray on your behalf is an honor like no other. I am way more interested in this blog continuing.

Have you ever been having a wonderful and animated talk about a topic you love with someone who understands you- then you realize you don't know how long ago the phone cut off, and you were talking to yourself? Sometimes that's how I feel. I don't want to "pressure" anyone by any means, I just don't want this to be a narcissistic endeavor focused on me me me. It takes time to write- 3 a week here is the same time use as 5 homeschooling posts- because there's more on the line. It's heart stuff, not head stuff. But I love you, man, whoever you are out there in blogland.

I'm honored that you would read New Mercy and
I would love to hear from you through comments!
Teresa (Tracy) Dear



5 comments:

Courtney said...

I think the word "success" is over used in life...Just because a blog doesn't have thousands of readers out there doesn't mean it isn't a success. You are encouraging to more women than you think. Even if they don't always comment. If you enjoy writing, then write. I don't think you should give up something you love and are passionate about just because your "numbers" aren't up there. :) I like your writing. I am always reading, even if I don't always comment. I will strive to do better! :) Happy Monday!

mama4x said...

I had so much to say to that comment that I added another paragraph at the end of the post! Thank you so much for your thoughts- it's not the numbers, its the time and one-sidedness. I do love writing though and I have till September -HA! self-imposed deadlines can be tossed out the window anyway!

Nancy M. said...

I never really thought about being a success, but of course, I didn't start with goals in mind. I just started blogging on the suggestion of a friend. I have really enjoyed getting to know so many wonderful ladies!

Angie said...

The word success made me think of this..."Study the book of the law continually. Meditate on it day and night so that you may be sure to obey all that is written in it. Only then will you succeed." -Joshua 1:8 Isn't your time spent blogging/writing time spent in "meditation" and with the Lord? I can certainly say I appreciate your writing and it has especially helped me in my current struggles. Though you do not always see the fruits of your labor, your shared words or thoughts could plant a seed that changes someones life in a very positive way. Is your writing glorifying the Lord? Then why would you even consider stopping if your passion brings glory to Him? God blesses us with gifts that enable us to bring Him glory and build up his church.(Romans 12:6-8) I say blog away!

mama4x said...

I'm so enjoying your thoughts! Thank you for your intelligent and thoughtful words. I hope that my writing is glorifying to God and points people to him... I love writing but I never thought of it as a spiritual gift.